Pushing to do things we never would have done

When things happen to us, they can change us, educate us, or help us see things more clearly than before. Some things are bad, some are good, and some just are. Some things push us to do things we never would have done otherwise, they help motivate us, whether for good or bad reasons.

I'm feeling like some of things are happening to me as I write this. Like the life I know is about to change. I'm not sure yet if it is for the good of things or if it will be another trial to push through, but I can definetly feel the changes happening. I hope that the things I'm feeling will motivate me, educate me, help me see more clearly and change my life for the better. I've lacked motivation for so long, despised the things around me, and longed for change and resolution. I know I'm done feeling like I'll never get what I want, it's time for me to get my way for once. I'm done giving in and letting others feel the warm sunshine of happiness and contentment at my expense. I will take each day as it comes and not push my way through, but take my time and carefully make my decisions so that when it's all said and done, I'll know I did what was best for me and mine and no one else.

When I say I'm done, I really mean I'm done. Done making concessions for others, done feeling like I'm to blame for others behaviours and actions. Done being content to have less than I desire for the sake of others happiness. I was born to be better than I am, always. I'm done letting others tell me I'm not, I shouldn't, I can't, or I won't. Today I'm done. Done with the naysayers.