The changes I've made recently are going well. I've been able to stick with them. The bf hasn't noticed these changes yet, & I don't suppose he will either. I've been taking my vitamins, going for walks in the morning, sticking to my schedule from morning till night, for Three Whole Days! Woot woot!
Today I'm contemplating, what I have & what I don't. This isn't a” keeping up with the Joneses” type issue, more of a realization.
What I have: a place to stay, a car, a job, money in the bank
What I don't: a home for my heart, a career I love, contentment
What I have: two boys that bring laughter & joy into my world
What I don't: the peace of mind that I can give them what they need if I change my surroundings
What I have: The Will to do & be Anything
What I don't: The courage to do it
What I have: The opportunity to take a leap
What I don't: The ability to see the future & know it's the right thing to do.
Some old feelings have crept into my heart lately, some good & some bad. I've been contemplating ” what-if's” about things that may not even be an option. Helping a friend through an uncertain time has made me more aware of my own uncertain times.
My next steps are going to be to focus on what I have & what I want. I'm thinking those may be very different from those around me.
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I love that you vocalize what you are thinking and feeling when some of us are just too chicken cause someone might get upset. So you go girl and better yourself!!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks. I know I'm not the only one that has these issues. Sometimes it helps to know others may be going through the same thing.
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